I just want to start off by saying I’m not upset with you. I love you too much to ever be mad or hate you. If I had to choose a word to describe how I feel about you, disappointed is the first thing that comes to mind.
You were everything I ever wanted, and truthfully, you still are. I’ve never met anyone like you, and am scare that I never will. You showed me how I truly deserve to be treated, something no one has ever done before. In my eyes you will always be an incredible man.
For many reasons, you decided to give up on me. You gave up on us. I understand why, and completely respect your decision. The fact is that it wasn’t the right timing for you and yes distance stood between us. But despite it all, I was willing to fight for you, and it breaks my heart that you weren’t.
We would have been perfect together. I could see us building a life full of happiness and love with each other. From the things you said to me, I know that you did too.
Maybe we just have different personalities, but I’ve always been one to fight for the things that I want in this world. If I can’t have them, I’ll try even harder. Yes love, I understand it wasn’t going to be easy. It would have been a long, messy, and hard process. But don’t you think that would have made it all more worth it?
How amazing would it have been to know that you fought for a love you knew you deserved? To look back and see that you did everything you could have done. To go through something like that together would have created a love that neither of us has experienced before. We would have been the luckiest people in this world.
But you didn’t fight. You gave up too easily. You knew the path was going to be hard and you backed out before you even bothered to try. Even though I could never hate you, honestly apart of me secretly does.
I guess I expected more from you. You seemed like the type of person who fought for the things he wanted in this world.
I realize that you were doing what was best for you. I hope that you have found contentment through your decision. That is all I have ever wanted for you, to be happy. I want you to have everything you desire in this life, because you deserve so much my darling.
I’m not writing this as a pled to get you back. I’ve accepted that you are gone and have come to terms with the fact. Quite honestly, I’m not even sure I want to be with you anymore. If you were so quick to give up on us once, I’m sure you would do it again. Usually I’m one for second chances, but I have no more energy left to get my heart broken once again.
I guess I just need you to know how I felt so I could ultimately move on and find happiness for myself. I need to let you go, so I can find the one who actually wants to fight for me .
I love you so much and hope nothing but the best for you.
Maybe one day we will be able to meet again and give this whole thing another try.
But for now, goodbye my love, I’ll be missing you.